Well 2016 has begun, already we are on day 4 and I already have a few plans, but first a summary and reflection on 2015.
A year of firsts
In April and May I had 3 firsts, my first visit to Scotland not cold weather at the time either, I attended my first political hustlings which apparently was the most lively one in my area and I started my work at the hospital. June I baked banana bread for the first time and August baked Chocolate Caramel shortbread with two of the Bubble family whilst they visited me
A year of outings and events
Three visits to Middlesbrough, one to Manchester and a trip to Blackpool, and visits from my friends in Middlesbrough, a friend form Yorkshire, and a visit from my friend in Scotland. A trip to the theatre with my friends Mr and Mrs Bubble, several trips to cafe’s, restaurants and pubs with friends. I didn’t have 4 weddings and a funeral rather it was one of each, both were impacting for different reasons.
Old and new
Bumping into friends I hadn’t seen for years and meeting new people, also creating a couple of groups one that had been in the planning for a long time, another almost done on the fly.
That was my review of 2015 now my reflections, in particular what I’ve learnt.
1 A year of firsts
A realisation that I still enjoy learning new things and experiencing new places and meeting new people. Scotland wasn’t as cold as I thought it would be and letting the Scots know I’m not anti Scottish. I can still try new things when baking even if it doesn’t taste quite as nice as you think. Some of the people I have met have been lovely.
2 It’s still ok to be vulnerable
When I was ill I lay thinking that I felt vulnerable but I also knew that it’s ok to feel that way. I will write a post on vulnerability in the future. The fact is vulnerability isn’t something to be feared rather it is something to be embraced.
3 Surprised by reacquainting with others
Surprised because Two people I hadn’t seen for a while had been through some bad times which was saddening to see and hear about, one other person I hadn’t seen for years I hardly new and was pleased to find that although when I first knew them I didn’t think I had much in common with I found they had more in common with me than I originally thought at the time, they also were informative and fascinating.
4 I can enjoy weddings or rather the receptions
I learnt at weddings or wedding receptions Joy has a way of spreading, people meeting in happy circumstances can create a great atmosphere and openness with others, it’s a bit like those who get drunk their inhibitions come down and they become more extrovert or feel relaxed and happy, that’s what an atmosphere at a wedding can do.
5 Getting more comfortable being myself
Embracing more and more of who I am, still more work there but I’m making progress. Celebrating my overall introverted nature but at the same time knowing that at times I do have an outgoing streak which I’m comfortable with too. Knowing I’m a peacemaker and the one that keeps going when things are tough.
6 Losing and finding your way and letting go
It’s ok to lose your way and you can find your way back whatever situation you maybe in from losing my way in Manchester to losing a sense of direction in my work situation. Letting go of not knowing, and to some degree of control again of outcomes.
Now to the resolutions. Well I’m no fan of those, instead I have a few aims.
1 Walk more
I started walking yesterday so I aim to walk everyday, weather and whereabouts permitting.
2 Hone in on my communication skills and seek to widen their sphere of influence.
I want to write more expand on what I’m doing, my dream is to expand in the oral side of communication too not just the written, but it’s finding the vehicle to hone those skills is the difficult one.
3 My relationships
I hope to see more of my friends this year and allow those relationships to grow or diminish just let go of what’s not important to be able to hold on to what is. I hope some reading this will stay in touch. I saw a good quote stop thinking more about personal ends rather than personal friends. I hope to see more of my family too.
4 Still visit more places
I want to visit more places both old and new, I hope if I get work to go on a proper holiday.
5 Try and get work.
I got something rolling towards the end of last year but with my health hiccup it has got put back lets hope that isn’t stalled for long.
6 Continue to be grateful for what I do have in life.
The gratitude project was a good plan but I didn’t keep it up as I’d wanted to much more important is to have a grateful heart and when the chips are down to focus on what is good.
Well we’ll see how that goes in the meantime Happy New Year!